I’m tired. Anyone else feel that way? Having little kids is one of the most amazing experiences that I have had, and yet, I’m tired. These little people that have blessed my life immeasurably, they need me ALL THE TIME. They need help getting up and getting dressed, eating and getting clean, and pretty much everything else that they do; they are in a very physically and emotionally, verbally dependent stage.

Because of that, I am too. I need sleep; coffee, friends, and mostly, I need Jesus. I need a daily reminder that I am not in this for the glory, I’m not in this for ease of life and I’m certainly not in this to make money. I’m in this because this is the life that I have been given. It was a long and difficult process to become a parent, and has definitely made me appreciate this gift all that much more, but it doesn’t make it less hard or less tiring.

I’ve been given the calling of helping these precious people know that they are loved by the King of everything. Chris and I often marvel at the awe and the words and the expressions of their little characters; but that doesn’t mean we always know what to do with them. And it doesn’t make it easy. We are not perfect parents and I’m so thankful to be regularly reminded by my struggles, that our Father IS a perfect parent. He knows how to love us unconditionally, discipline us only in his perfect understanding of our need and how to sacrificially provide Grace and Mercy that I can hope to emulate a small bit of for my kids.

But no matter where you are in this journey of parenting - whether you’re steadfastly waiting to be a parent, or you are in the midst of pregnancy, or young children’s mess, or teenage struggle, or adult children - parenting is hard. It’s your heart, walking around outside your body. And we have to trust that heart to the God who all of us belong to.

I’m learning that when it’s most hard, when I’m the most tired, the best place for me to sit is in scripture knowing that ultimately I’m not in control and I’m not alone. That Jesus has something for me always.

The earth is the LORD’s and everything in it. The world and all its people belong to him. Psalm 24:1

In Him,

Cara